Lazy Weekend?

Well I thought and planned for this weekend to be calm and quiet and in reality I feel like I achieved that pretty good. We did however do a lot of stuff. Jayson and I went on a much needed date on Friday night. We went to dinner at Outback and then went to Hastings for a couple hours and just read books. It was rather nice just to have some quiet time without the girls. Woke up on Saturday and went to Emmas soccer game. We stopped at McDs and got me a chicken biscuit with cheese which is my favorite but it didn't sit so well and I was pretty nauseas for the rest of the day. After that, I had a baby shower and then guitar practice and after that we had a game night at the house. That was NUTS! We had about 10 kids at the house at one point. It was too much and the house was a mess. On Sunday, Jayson and I took turns napping and he let me sleep in. Then Emma and I went to dinner because I was getting cabin fever.

As for the pregnancy, I feel pretty good. Honestly, I do not feel pregnant aside from the occasional day of an upset stomach. I have an appointment on the 20th, but I don't think anything will come of it. It would be nice to get an ultrasound to make sure there is a baby in there but I don't know. I want to get close to this baby, but I am scared due to my past. Ugh...

And we did it...

Well, Jayson and I have managed to do it. Yes "it"...ha. We made a baby. Today i am 4w5d and I think it may have been the first day of morning sickness. I am unsure of how to feel. I am so scared things will repeat from Chase or my previous blighted ovum. Seeing the excitement that Jayson shows, I would be devastated to have to tell him that things were heading downhill. But then i want so badly to be happy and enjoy this. I think once we see this little bean, I will relax a little. There are most certainly pros and cons for finding out so early in a pregnancy. I know I love this little thing so much already.